my blog isnt dead yet, bitch

Im so sorry dear blog. I was too busy with date, working, meeting with president all over the world, satisfying wives and having babies. With all the works i've done, i lost 6kg in two weeks.

Too many things happened lately and i dont even know where to start. Lets start with raya. I think this year is the least fun i eva had in my life. Im different than u people here. I have 2 dad's and 2 mum's. beat that. With the tikus ( 3 steppies ) and those upcoming babies which i have to call brother and sister. Dear god, please no more upcoming sibblings. I like to be the youngest ya allah. 1st day of raya and im about to break to pieces. I was too exausted. Subang, Kota Damansara, Sungai Buloh, Gombak, Sh. Alam, Hartamas, Malacca then drive back to kl in one day. Gila ah. I think i slept less than 3 hours for the 1st 4days of raya. About 6am, i fly off to Johor to meet my grams and cousins cos ususally they gather at one place so it would me more merrier. I didnt enjoy most of the time with my relatives cos they kept on asking how does it feel to have a new family. What a stupid ass question to ask. Tu lah melayu. Bodoh dalam menanya soalan bijak.

Yesterday, i was with michael and we hit the road for a roadtrip. Cant believe we were lost in some kampung for about 1 and a 1/2 hours there. Haha but its fun to see he panic like hell. Yesterday morning i became his stylist and he need a new style to college. So we attacked Zara, AX, CK and Ralph Lauren for his new style. well- for the 1st time i helped someone on shopping and i get none. In addition, i have to spend more money for him on food and his aviator. Aishhh.

Today, most of the time i did is just chatting with Fadhil. I didnt call him the whole day cos im sick and my voice turns out to be like cicak. Cant believe he said i sounded like an oldman on the phone when he called me just now. MAHAI ! Haha.

Ryanne's Farewell

Yesterday was the bomb with Ry and the bongoks at square. I miss them asses since my mum doesnt let me out cos of h1n1 thingy and so, i lied and deepest apologies to her and I think the 1st day of Raya is The Best Day to come clean. well muslim said its the day of forgiveness. It feels so welcome at the time i arrived when Ry and Carlo stood up and run to me. I love u guys so much lol.

Ryanne, my best bitch since high school

Carlo my man. The one who still likes my step sis

Desiree, Elly, Ryanne, Fathur, Mahan and Lionel
You guys really put a joker smile on my face

Yesterday, Avenged Sevenfold song was played and suddenly
Lionel seems to be possesed
And he was so high and embarassed us on the table
hahaha
Babi !!
He started to visualised and singing and screaming
Omg
Seriously i doesnt know him at all !!!

Ryanne went back today afternoon and i didnt get to see her at all because my grandma is in coma and she had semi strok cos of hypo in the hospital since last night at 1am. Sorry Ry and You still owe me TUSHI ok ! I've been wanting to eat Tushi since last year. UGH ! I still feel sorry for Carlo and Mike tho cos they couldnt hang out with us till the end.

Bitter And Sweet Post

Today i went to Hanna's house. I was hoping to see Marisa ass and she was insanely late ! OMG u are such a PIG hahaha Marisa dear, did u know what i through for ur tickets ??? Its so hell k !! I heard Joann said that Jesse and the gang is gonna FUCK my ass soon. Im so dead. Aish korang ah really givin me a big time ahahah And i still LOVE u Bitch. Im still worry about u Marisa cos u still have the flu and fever. Get well soon k

Waiting for miss world to arrive

The late Kimora

Yesterday i went to curve cos maxis called me regarding on the phone that i bought recently and there's a problem with the documents that i sign. Its very Funny cos a moment after i left curve, a fever strike me and my whole body was burning up. My parents is so worry and i should say paranoid cos i just had my fever recently and it strike me again( same thing as what Aiman Ariffin said ) . And so they sent me for a check out, just to be save after the influenza strikes like hell in Kl lately. But i know it just a normal fever, ohhhh comon, we are talking about Fathur who is tough like a superman k. Fuck that guy who fuck the PIG and cos of him, the virus was created. Thank and good lord to him.
Im so worry now incase if i got guarantine or anything tomoro, Im gonna miss AX, Guess, Topman and all the store * Crying * . Whata hell am i saying la. Its not even a sure that i have the flu, no symtoms, nothing. So im not dieying or the world is gonna end. Haha
Guess i should get some beauty sleep cos tomoro im gonna be the lab animal test which is so cool and fun !!

Haunted by Reality

My thoughts are all over the place.
Sometimes i feel like leaving all the stuff behind and start a new life cos the past has been haunting me every time i closed my eyes.
Life sometimes can be fun but it is only for a moment.
Its like a glimpse, u saw it and in a second, it dissapeared and turn to be dark.
Somehow, im still thinking about leaving Malaysia and going back to my hometown in Australia, its really peaceful and yes, im gonna be lonely cos all that i care is here.
Does it make me a moron if i leave? Does it mean im selfish leaving all my friends here in Malaysia?
I don't even know the answer myself.
Guess- i am a moron and a very selfish person cos i cant even fix a damn thing and all i did is just cry and wait for a time to change without putting an efford.
I miss a thing called " family " ,dont even know or remember hows the feel of having a family.
I miss my late Mama ( who is like a mum to me and took care of me since i was 3days after i was born)
I miss my late bestfriend, Dan De Luca so much
Im breaking to pieces eva since i lost u guys.
I'm always wondering with the upcoming drama, will it be good? will it be bad? or will it be totally change and ruin me?
Tomoro is the day that my dad will introduce me to someone he just met.
Maybe i should start to accept reality and everything that possibly happen and let it flow by itself.
Jezzz, i wish i had someone who could help me stand strong since im falling and breaking to pieces.

Penat Gila

Ms. Jessica a.k.a not so Alba helps me with my shoping today.. She gila semangat and today i paid her to be my " orang gaji " .. awww arent im sweet jess ??? I supposed today will be the last time im gonna bring u for a shoping, cos i have to say it with honesty that ur eyes is so cacat >=o hahaha Jess act pick me a shirt with a design macam kena air brush.. gila ah.. Dah la my short pants she chose the yellow colour.. Sometimes, white people can be very very lunatic when it comes to fesyen xD well shes normal outside, but today i realised that she actually very weird at choosing cloths.. No wonder la she had all those bits and Eskimo shoes and she wears that today. A very terified moment and today i feel so relief cos last time she wore the type in the film of 300 which is so spartans. I love u jess and u beter thank me later cos it took me a few minutes to write about u here k xD

Marisa.. OLD OLD OLD

Marisa.. the oldies

so on the 1st ogos 2009, marisa ass turned older
and
i saw few wrinkles on her face and she needs to be iron
im sorry dear for yesterday
i couldnt make it to calebrate ur birthday
i love u mamarisa a.k.a chocolate mars
aish
all my friends are gettin older
and so am i
but while im ageing
somehow peeps says i looked younger
ahahahah
mamarisa mamarisa
another year older
i love u buddy

Poison In My Brain

I dont think i make the most of all the stress. Im missing someone like crazy and i misses all my friends. It feels like foreva tak jumpa Aiman Ariffin and i miss his sillyness and when he gossip and tellin story, its as if i were watching some kind of horror or panic attack movie hahaha sorry Aiman.. Love u k. So, today pegi buat baju melayu for raya and for my brother wedding day, penat gila. I saw this amazing pants at Tough and CK but gila ah mahal !! Then i walked to mana ntah and i saw this one rare aviator. I know Aiman would love this stuff but then i doesnt know whether it suits him or not, muka jambu but it it might not suit well with him. Semester break is killin me ! A month and nothing to do, for the 1st time i feel so jobless and pokai. Nevamind, later i will ask Carlo to belanja me shoping or maybe Marisa. Sayang korang k !! Lets not forget Elly the tempurung face. Thinking about u guys really killin me. Seriusly i need to see ya'll to be happy. Im so stressed thinking about unable to see u guys la. Reeyas Zhafrie Lam Ian Kwan, what happen to u now bro ??? Miss u the most here and last time we met was on the 11th of july which is Sem's pool party.

Now im being so emo. Really really love and miss u guys

Poem's Of The Year =)

Malaysia semua babi,
our government is so lousy,
all college no quality,
Chinese and Indian pun tak boleh masuk university.

It never had a choice for me,
because no money cannot study at oversea,
so I always feel i am so pity,
every college are greedy,
sini sana all need money,
their pocket kosong our perut noisy,
I am poor because they suck my money.

Exam question full of difficulty,
it has one reason only,
which is to earn more money,
because we retake money masuk lagi.

The staffs always so eksi,
they did wrong never say soli,
before asking please show your money,
otherwise they wont be happy,
we pay their salary still make us angry,
that is why i wanna study hard to earn more and more
money.

Tiap-Tiap hari feel so lazy,
never try to wake up early,
always hope college will cuti,
everyday go to class feel so sleepy,
lecturer always scold me lazy.

Do assignment just like to copy,
before the final only start to worry,
every nite study like crazy,
because scared scolded by mummy.

Why my class girls all not pretty,
big like elephant but always show me how she is sexy,
while the monster wanna treat me nicely,
like that i better mati.

My looks also very ugly,
saya mari girl girl semua lari,
everyday wanna date them they only say busy,
semua orang tak ada hati,
make me always so lonely, only can watch soap opera movie.

Dota always let people bully,
maybe i am really so lousy,
although nice people is so happy,
but i am always unlucky,
kena headshot easily,
after mati still mati.

This is just a small story,
typed it simply simply,
just wanna feel funny and happy,
actually i
am not lonely,
because I have many friends around me,
They all so so friendly.

I hope this poem will make you happy,
this is tak ada kena mengena with anybody,
just want you to feel happy,
Cos if you happy i also senang hati.

The Complains

So, i had study skills exam today
I didnt expect that all i read came out
and woooosh..

kacang gila * style mamat melayu cakap *
its really rare cos i actually read for exams
tadi in the exam halls,
i kena marah by Ms.Aida

she la semangat lebih
calling me to sit down cos i was talking at the coridoor
and about 15minutes after i start , i realized that i took the wronged exam
aish
then she selamba bagitau i careless kat lecturer lain
hahahahaha
its her fault kowt
nevamind, at least she laugh
and she did jokes
unlike madam GOH-tong
i got WARNING from papa few days before my exam
he said, i'll be dead if i didnt score well
those words aint true when he said im dead,
translation, killin me
just, the most i scared is,
he promised that i will have to work for money and no more outing for me
well - no money means no shopping
AIMAN ARIFFIN a.k.a mr sexy once said that im a spoil brats
but thats aint true
hahahahah
well, maybe cos i learn that from the best !! xD

Forget about this laahh
most important thing is
im gonna have a sem's break for a month starting next wednesday
and for a month im gonna stuck for DRIVING CLASS for license
My dad send me to bentong, pahang to my uncle place which is so far
I dont mind but i hardly meet or talk to my uncle
aish
i dont feel like complaining la
nanti that someone cakap i complain alot and memang spoil brats
hehehe
nevamind, i think i can have fun there
besides, its really near to genting highlands
and its been ages since the last i went there

Best Friend Foreva

Best Friends
The title we chose
But what does it mean to be “best friends”?
You should see each other every day?
Well that’s not true for you and me
Should silly little fights get in our way?
Only if that’s how it’s meant to be
Should we give?
Should we borrow?
Should we dance like there’s no tomorrow?
Secrets are traded
Privacy invaded
Hugs and smiles are shared
Tears are shed
Love is spread
We know that we both really cared
If you fall
I’ll help you up
And if you call
I’ll always pick up
Best Friends Forever
The promise we made
And I know in my heart
That it will never fade