My Rhetoric

Suffocate And Gasping For an Air

2011-12-31T04:05:00.003+08:00

What's life? For me, the best definition for a life is a disaster, a one living hell and turning a human into a living corpse. People often said that life has its ups and downs. From the viewed of my own perception, it slowly killing people and always at the point of bringing people down.

Its 31st of december today and I'm gonna start a new chapter starting tomorrow and honestly speaking, I'm not looking forward for a celebration. Every day I spend pondering about things that have to do with life. Most all of them make me feel helpless. It seems like there is no universal answers out there and people agree and disagree on every single topic. Here's some examples. Why is there something instead of nothingness, why must we have so much of god test, is life really what it seems. From here I try to look up stuff to help me out with questions like these and it just makes it worse. It seems like all philosophical questions have no answer's to them. Stuff like solipsism and nihilism really scare me. New philosophical things always pop up into my head everyday for me to worry about. I feel like I'm losing my mind over these things.

Million Miles Apart

2011-07-09T17:57:00.002+08:00

Sunday- 9th July 2011

Time : 12.15pm

Thousand miles away... Thank you masterskills =) I appreciated you for sending my friend away to Beaufort, Sabah for practical where I doubt that its the best decision to do so. I wonder what am I suppose to do on every weekends now... Things and routine has changed for the worst but I will always pray for your success and wellness. I see you soon in sabah =)

Fade To Black

2011-06-09T23:55:00.006+08:00

I cry for the first time that you were almost mine,

I cry for the memories I've left behind,

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new,

I cry for the times I thought I had you.

What else could you take away from me when I gave you everything that you ever wanted. Nothing seems so right when I'm with you. There's a laugh but behind it I believe you didn't see it was just a tears. Call me a hypocrite, I did that because I hate seeing you hurt or sad.

I still remember the day I know you through my friends. It was February 9, your birthday and I wished you. I remember how you look like, your hair was short, you were thin and you have pimples that you hate most. That was years ago. Was it stone age? I can't recall. I met you for the 1st time on april 11th. You were wearing a white sweater with black jeans and flip flops. I remember the time I was thinking that you dyed your hair because it look sticky and its so black. Sadly, I was wronged. You were wearing some kind of a hair moisturiser. We went to curve on our 1st date. We had a long talk, a long walk looking for datin sri's coffee table, a gossip at nando's and i laughed so hard till my contact lens went up. It was stupid.

The day I met you was the day I intro you to my cousin and her boyfriend. We went straight to Rasta for shisha and you vomited because it was your 1st time and my mistake for not taking you for a dinner. You were blushing and that was the time I realize you are cute, adorable and my type. As the time past, an hour feels like a minute, I enjoyed every single nano seconds with you. We decided to hang out at thai club. How crazy. The day we had our 1st date was the day we decided for a clubbing. That was the very 1st time I hold your hand, we dance together and I hugged you.

I'm starting to ran out of ideas on how or what to write. Tears is falling. The memories we had, things we went through is priceless and nothing can be compared with. It was about 3.30am and I sent you home. You got practical work at 7.30am and I felt guilty for sending you late. I park my car outside your house so your housemate wont see me, We had a talk, a really nice conversation till 5,45am about you, things you like, things you did and I started to story about myself. That was the time I saw the real you. How sweet, can be annoying at time, a clown and honest.

I always love you and accept you the way you are. At the stage of depression now, I hope you understand and get to know me better. I can't accept the facts I'm about to lose you. All i can say is that i love you with all my heart. Always do and always will. You taught me the true meaning of love,taught me how to smile,and how to be happy again. I just want you to know that my love for you will never fade and I'll fight for you till the end.

From Here to Eternity ~

2011-06-09T11:32:00.006+08:00

Memories fill my head as i look at a picture of us.
Do you remember that day? The day you told me you loved me..
The day you said we'd b together. I should have known it was to good to be true.Cause no one is as good as you. You were perfect.The one everyone wanted. I remember the day you walked like it just happened. You said that you wont do this anymore and I buy every single words you said. Then, you look away and let go of my hand. You didn't care if i was ok or not.

Tears fill my eyes and my throat begins to burn.
I cant seem to learn.

I always miss you though you are next to me.
The memories hurt.
But I want to remember everything.
I NEED to remember it.
Because

I always love you ♥

Letting Go

2011-06-08T11:52:00.009+08:00

In my life i have seen the sun shine
In my life i have felt the rain
through the livid through the fire
I have been through all of life's sweet gain
but how do i get to heaven
know that i am only human
how do i reach perfection?

life is strange
I need a change
a new life a new beginning
tell me what lies waiting for me
a new life a new beginning
I' m ready for my world, my destiny

Today is a new day,
If you stay down life will pass you by,
So help yourself get up,
fight the battle and win.

There is a plan, a destiny that awaits you,
Do not question your destiny,
Do not ask questions such as why me?
Accept the path that has been laid in front of you.

Do not be afraid,
Take one day at a time,
Be proud of who you are,
Walk with courage and your head up high,
Believe in yourself,
Focus on the positive,
For the footsteps imbedded in ground of your new path will become the solid

p/s : I found it funny when I able to create shit like this but unable to do anything that is good from injuring myself. Once you are down, never do stupid stuff. Be strong, go out with your friends and find something that can chill your mind.

Ways To Keep A Relationship

2011-06-07T15:23:00.001+08:00

1. LOVE EACH OTHER SINCERELY.

2. Don't lie.

3. Keep communication open.

4. When you get hurt, forgive and forget.

5. Never talk about break-ups.

6. Never say "it's okay", even when it's not.

7. Forget about "pride".

8. If you say sorry, mean it.

9. Don't compare your past, with your present.

10. Give & take process.

11. Don't talk about your ex's.

12. Beware of his/her feelings.

13. When you had a fight, don't let the day pass.

14. Don't be only partners, but best-friends.

15. Don't flirt with another guy/girl.

16. HAVE FUN, go out!

17. Don't treat their forgiveness like it's expected.

18. Don't hide what you're thinking, tell them.

19. Remember; we all make mistakes & have pasts.

20. Don't question each others feelings.

21. Don't take him/her for granted.

22. Never go to bed angry.

23. Don't be afraid to be you!

24. Have time, energy & effort.

25. Don't lose yourself in the 'us'.

26. Don't say things you don't mean.

27. Little things make big differences.

28. Give each other space, don't be over possessive.

One And A half Years

2011-06-07T02:26:00.007+08:00

I take a look at the time and its almost 3am and I just had a birthday few hours ago. The best thing, unforgettable memories I had in Penang. Spend my days with QeeQee, someone who dearly at my heart. I'm currently sitting under a tree at Lake Garden expressing my feelings on my blog.

Qeeqee was a year older than me. You was super short and fun. I liked you alot because we could have fun and talk. I ingat lagi you asked me out a week before 11th April 2011. In the heat of the moment, I said YES. I don’t think I would have regretted it so much…I stupidly waited for you..for one and a half years I've been liking you secretly. Qeeqee and I lived 200miles away from each other but it didn't stopped us from meeting up on every weekends. Friday to sunday, the days when i get to hold your hands and kissed it and makes me smile. My birthday was yesterday and we went to Feringgi and spent 5hours at the beach listening to your laughed, the moment when i silent and smile thinking if I still had a chance to do this again next year with you but I tahu you ingat I bosan and mengantuk. I know I'm not the best for you but I love you sincerely from heart. Its been few weeks asyik gaduh and I cried and i hurt you. I never meant to hurt you but I pray to god that you sincere and honest with me. If my story ends tonight and god takes my life away and he ask for my last wish, I will definitely pray for your change and happiness because I don't mind if I get hurt but not you. My heart can never be repaired.

Little To Live For

2011-02-28T03:27:00.007+08:00

depression and happy, are they much different?

I knew I was feeling down but I didn't know I was clinically depression. I grew up with a lot of hate and fear, anger which kept my health always in a negative frame. As I got older the patterns kept coming such as more abuse in many different ways also causing deep depression and wondering why I was born and why me? I just kept shoving all these nasty feeling further down burying them in my cells so I thought I could escape from them instead of dealing with them, tranquilizers numbed me a bit but never completely, so I just got sicker & sicker physically, emotionally and spiritually. I crossed over as in death through my many illnesses and found myself wondering why I was struggling on this earthplane when it was so peaceful on the other side, the only thing that stopped me was because of someone who very dear to me. I was sick and tired of hating being here and being forever ill in one form or another. It didn't take long to feel even worse discovering that everything that had happened to me was what I had created , boy that one threw me for a loop big time but being very defiant in nature I was about to go on a journey of self healing not really believing yet that it was true to find that under my misery in depression was many layers I had to deal with up front and very personal exposing myself in front of others was a real hard thing to do. How crazy are we to give ourselves a life sentence of misery from what others had done? Probably because deep down I knew I had allowed it all so it was me ,the first one I had to forgive for all my past mistakes in this life and every other lifetime I have ever lived .I even met someone I really love by divine intervention but now that is another story on how that happened.

When your sick to your stomach laying in your bed, your eyes burning with tears, knowing in your heart that your life will never be perfect again. On the edge of throwing up, and waking up the next morning just as sick as you were the night before and the nights before that. Not being able to sleep because you can’t relax your mind with all the debris of the heartache flying around and smashing into each other like uncontrollable emotions stuck in a jail cell. Knowing that you was the one and knowing that I will never have you back is the suckiest feeling I ever had. Scared of being alone but not wanting to be close to anyone ever again. Petrified of ever reliving this feeling because you do not know if you could survive it for a second time. Asking yourself “why” every single night for months. Wondering what is so wrong with you and wondering why the love you feel burning inside you isn’t burning the same way in them. Trying not to break down whenever you pass them or see them in public. Drinking just to keep from thinking of them every night. Still just as in love as the day you met, even though you’ve been apart for over months. Knowing your life will never be what you wanted and knowing you will never be truly happy. Drinking just to forget and calling to hear their voice just to remember. Feeling warm and cold at the same time whenever you see them. Wanting to see them but come so close to cracking when you do, you can’t remember why you do it to yourself. Laying with them on your couch for old times sake but knowing they will never be yours to hold again. You might get a hug but knowing you will never get a hug like you used to get. When you look into their eyes, it’s not the same as when you would get lost in them. The smile can still make you crumble, but it’s more painful these days. Your voice will still make my heart do a flip, but lately the heart hasn’t been landing it’s flips to well and comes close to never getting up. When you hear about them with someone else, it kills you but you act as if you couldn’t care less. You play it off like it’s in the past and it doesn’t matter anymore but deep down you still wish you could just roll over and die. Being so depressed and shy to even let them know how you feel. Scared of saying anything to them out of fear that you might lose the small amount of relationship you have left with them. The occasional phone calls and visits are all that keep you going and you dread the day they end, even though you dread every phone call and visit. Every time you pass where they live, you look for their car in the parking lot. Every time you see their name on the caller ID, they are the first person to be called back, even though you might act like they were your last priority. You sincerely care if their life is on track or if they are truly happy and deep down that is all you really want for them. Even though it kills you not to have them if they are happier without you, that is what you want them to have. This is love. Not the shit in the movies. Not Hollywood. Not what fall out boy sings about. Nothing Madonna has ever experienced. The rare, and powerful emotion that is confused so often for lust.

A Dash of Honey

2011-01-03T12:37:00.010+08:00

Sometimes if you do it right, you might get the chance to feel like disney's love classic

I like to leave love notes for my sayang. It is a nice little surprise when you finds them. Generally what I like to do is make a small card by folding over a small piece of paper and put it in a capsule and fills it in a bottle. I usually write a little teaser on the front followed by three periods. Inside the sentence is completed with a heartfelt expression of love.

This love note is very happy thought, and it is so true.

The closer I am to you...
the happier I am.

I met my sayang at mid for the 1st time. After we talked on the phone for the very first time on the 15th, I remember hanging up the phone and saying to myself, "Wow, you're amazing!". This love note is a reference to that first phone call.

'You have Wowed me from the very beginning.'

I love hugs.

I love to hold you in my arms.

You don't have to be perfect, to be perfect for me.

I think our relationship is beautiful.

My sayang is always on my mind. I wrote this love note to tell I am always fondly thinking about you.

You make me a very happy man.

I miss your warmth sayang

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
Roy Croft

2010 memories

2011-01-01T19:30:00.007+08:00

Had the most awesomeness 2010 memories. My ingredients for 2010 was a mixture of a lil bit of bitter, sweet, happy, sad and love. At the starting of the year of 2010, things were quite heavy and ugly but then it wasn't that bad. I find it quite funny after reminiscing and how emo and miserable i was during the year.

At the beginning, my life was ugly as Macy Gray. No joke. Had a family problem, a problem with myself, with friends ( you know who you are ), money and business crisis and lots more. To be more specific, I'm way worst than Naomi Campbell's life. My life was good as hell for 11months until November appeared. Met someone who is a great person and taught me how to pray again. I even feel like an old me back and that's a good thing.

I think I don't need to story from A-Z about my life because that's what I've been doing to my psychiatrist and she said i talked to much about myself. Cant help it. I have self-obsession. I didn't celebrate new year's eve last night because a very dear friend of mine, Zack.F went back home at the crucial time on the 31st of Dec but we had a great time together since 23rd-24th of Dec and 28th-31st of Dec.

Zackirina =)

The most awesome Fathurina =)

My awesome mum, Minirina

Ain't he adorable??

Last day visiting mama's office with Zack.F

Zack.F, Mama and me. Some random treats from mama after busy cleaning up the office

Both perasan comel

Hot dog for lunch with family in Ikea

Bimble bee smelly hat

Homemade pie from Zack.F to mama???

Cleaning up the files from 1990-2010.

Aunt and Batrisyia was relaxing while both of was busy cleaning up the junks

Shinmino desert at ikea

Window shopping and wishing he had bought me something

Checking out Christmas present and decoration in curve

In cineleisure mall before dinner

Mama newest son. keluar dari perut je dah umur 21

Mr. Smelly Popeye =)

Zack.F was busy helping mama cleaning up the files

Otw to mum's office getting reading to pack up stuff

Si buncit

The 1st friend who able to drive mama's car. She doesn't let anyone drives it.

The Truth.

2010-11-10T00:28:00.004+08:00

It has been months since the last I've updated my blog and it's not that I doesn't have interesting story to tell, it just that I'm lost the right words to say and the story isn't exactly what I want to share. But since I have decided to blog again, the story is gonna be about me.

Life has been crazy. It's like the madness drunk club. You wake up one morning, you got the headache and you forgot everything about lastnight but the remains stick with you. So I’ve been stressing out a little bit lately. I am one of the most screwed up persons that you’ve heard of. I’m collapsing under my insecurity. Crushed by my past, my present, and my future. For I know what lies ahead in this life is sorrow, misery and grief. No one knows this more than I, though people claim I’m too young to fully grasp what life has to offer. So wrong they are. I have life pinned down in its fetal position, screaming its ugly truths to me in terror. I soak it all in. I learn from it. I get depressed from it. Then I stick my head up high and act like nothing bothers me.

It wasn’t until a few months ago that reality hit me like a brick on glass. I shattered, then immediately tried to put myself back together. I spent long nights staring at my ceiling, reflecting on my past. I realized my life is a wreck. It’s depressing to look in a mirror and literally jump back at whose staring back at you, to realize you’ve been living behind a wall of insecurity. And now that wall has come down, exposing me to the real world. Why did life become so hard? I guess it just crept up on me.

My family has been broken ever since before i knew I'm living with a broken family.The message I heard growing up was nothing is absolute, if you hurt me, you deserve my silence and my wrath. Family means nothing, helping a sibling because he is your brother or she's your sister holds no weight and is absolutely meaningless. To say hurtful words to a sibling was completely the norm when I was younger. There was no support, acceptance or even caring. We were constantly testing each other and cared only until the next time one hurt the other. Then the whole relationship was out the window. There was no understanding, no allowance for the rest of the relationship, no crossing the bridge to make things better or work things out. It was all or nothing. Life was one big game of walking on eggshells. This was my first lesson in interpersonal relationships.

Meanwhile I have found and cherish the surrogate family that I have in my life. I have friends that have become my sisters and brothers, those friends that I can share my true feelings, true fears and just to talk through something to find a healthy way through it. In my growth I've learned how powerful it is to look at an issue from the other person's side. I remember the first time I heard this , I couldn't even understand that concept. I've also learned that I cannot change the world and I cannot change another person, what I can change is myself. As Hillel says "if I am not for myself than who am I?" God created me in this reality and with that gave me the power, strength, fortitude and knowledge to change.

I did a lot of mistakes in my life and living in regrets. Whenever I'm stress, I tend to do something stupid. I tried to smoke, I was a drinker and I wasn't like this a year ago. I'm only human when I'm with IAZ. Though family has been broken ever since I was 5, you the only that knows how to calm and carve a smile on my face.

You You You And It's Always Been You

2010-07-15T20:23:00.003+08:00

I still remember the summer when we first met
The times we spent together I have never been able to forget
Something inside of me told me it was so right
Because even on the cloudiest days, when I was with you, the sun shone so bright

Then, without warning, you just went away
I could never forget how I felt that day
It felt like my world was crashing down around me
Being without you made it hard to breathe

I moved on and started other relationships
But for some reason it was always you that I missed
No matter how hard I tried, you just couldn't be replaced
My love for you would not be erased

After a while, I saw that no one has ever been able to duplicate
Your laugh, your touch, your smile, your face
The way I felt when I was with you was simply unmatched
To you is where my heart has always been attached

HotSexyWickedlyAttractive's Farewell Party

2010-02-08T17:13:00.011+08:00

Atok, 1more day to go then u chao for another 1 and a 1/2 years. Sigh. I'm bloody regret on the day we out and sory if i was emo, you know that's not the real me Haha I'm way fun and crazy outside, every time i looked at you, all i think is about you, your flight and your ausie :( That's the main reason why i gave the "goldfish" looks.

I had fun, really really fun. The best part was you and aliph talking about the hormones. Thank you for all the info's about his habits and "YOURS" HAHAHA Aiman, for real I thought you are skematic type, 156% clean and honestly, it makes me uncomfortable with it. I wanted to join the crazy talk, but thanks to you, your leaving makes me really emo -__- Tetek lah kau aiman !! For the very 1st time I've seen Aiman acting randomly and syndrome-ish. So all this time was just an acting with me?!?! HAHA You acted politely when we had lunch, you even censored all the dirty words then suddenly, kabooosh, the real Aiman shows up. However, I really like his new character. Do i look alim much to go for a skematic person? Fuck no HAHA Pening aku layan satu beruk terencat and budak syndrome x)

An hour + passed by, then we make our move to Curve cos he gotta meet up with his friends. So, basically it was just me and Aliph left. While waiting for my atok, we decided to go for an ice cream at baskin's and gossip about our ex'es, crushy and many more to be listed :) It was gila drama, Aliph, the queen of drama. I wonder if Oprah's interested in Aliph's so called "novel". While listening to his stories, it was more like he's the Titanic and I'm the crew. It was very dramatic and very interesting :) But moral of the story, he's an asshole ;) *I dont think I need to state the reasons why* Somehow the day just got more interesting, I met this bunch of group who actually knows me HAHA They know my name and they recognized me with the new looks. I always forgot how famous I am and thanks to all the fans for reminding me who I really am :)

It was about 6.40pm and gedik received a call from atok that he's done with his friends. I feel so sucks for rejecting his request. Aiman wanted to karaoke but thanks to mama for freezing my account and so we end up for bowling. I'm not pro just yet and just so you know, the last time i had bowling was about 2 years ago with the Parma's. I had so much fun since luck was by myside. I think i got strike more than 8-9 times and this is not a lie !! HAHA I can tell by their faces, Aiman was pissed and Aliph punya mulut ternganga lepas i got strike for the first game HAHA ambik korang. I think i learnt something new from Aiman on that day, he thought me dance, a very sexy flirty dance with his sexy postures HAHA * I record that bitch* >:) Bowling game was about to end and thank god it was the last game when my knee's injury attacked. It was sweet of him to give me a ride home and thank you for noticing, yeah the place is fuckin scary HAHA

Atok Damha Namia

The drama queen

The balls doesnt help much, its the skills that required ;)

Aiman with his pro moves

Him and His Ausie

2010-02-05T20:10:00.004+08:00

Damha Namia

Damn. Somebody is flying soon and I'm still unprepared. I haven't start any of his grand farewell party although I have lots of plan on my mind. I'm so sorry Aiman :'( Seriously, I really hate seeing you fly but no matter what I have to support you since you going to Ausie for a study :) Trust me, if you leave me for more than a year, you gonna end up people finding u in a sewers !! (I meant it)

Ahmad Aiman bin Ariffin, he is one of my most awesome friends. A guy who is a good listener, trust me he has been my ears since the day i met him. I dont think I ever had a fight with him before, well that's because I'm not aliph HAHAHA and one of the reasons is because he is such a great friend and aku sayang kat kau, Aiman.

We met through a very weird way. I know him through Friendster couple of years ago. Then suddenly we end up being a friend ever since I texted him and was hoping to meet up. The 1st time we met was at the Help University College, it was at conference hall and yeahhh the dude was fucking scared to meet me HAHA We had a gossip and talked a lot while he was having his fries at MC'D, then amazingly we found out that we are neighbors :D I know him too well, one of the things that he randomly do is, he'll sing when he walks, always count his steps, he blow his hair after he got tired of laughing and many other unlisted awesome things about him :)

Aiman Aiman, I really hope that is not true about you leaving to Ausie for a year. 9th of February, 4 more days to go. No worries cos no matter what, I'm happy for you. It's once in a life time opportunity and I'm so visiting you since you going to my hometown :) March, then i promise i will fly to Brisbane then we do all the crazy stuff together. I will do Doa selamat for you, my family and I prayers is on you Ahmad Aiman bin Ariffin. I hope everything will goes well. I'm starting to miss you

sincerely,
Fathur Pattinson

feb 21st

2010-01-31T20:35:00.003+08:00

February,

The holy month that scares me the most
Everything about February reminds me of you
Your smell, your touch, your kiss, your breath, your love and all your bitter sweet memories
February, thank you for making me sick again
I can survive on next to nothing
I can get by on rationed loving
But,
I cannot thrive

Dear Holy February,
I stay alive with pinched lips and hungry eyes
I tell myself lies about better tomorrows alibis
To cover the sorrow that i felt inside

As for me
My storehouse has little in store
Winter snows will freeze even my bones
I need more of February

February,
4months has gone
And you have been gone away happily
When February past,
Apart of me died
Tho the Holy scares me
Trust me
Nothing beats this month
Cause February is the best thing i ever had

Two Royalty In Action

2010-01-25T19:39:00.008+08:00

What the feathers. I couldn't sleep at all last night cos my knee was throbbing like hell and trust me, it feels shitty. So, today i was 5ominutes late for my morning class. Thank god mama was the one who sent me. I didn't enjoy much in my psychology class today cos seriously, Mr Sebastian were talking mostly about sex Haha Damn, seriously whats with the Anal and Oral has to do with psychology?!?! Maybe i should write that for my upcoming quiz (Gerenti aku dapat A Mr sebs)

So, today i waited for Tengku Wan Azrie at mcD. Well-maths class supposedly ends at 5 but i was out 2hours earlier ahahaha Put the blame on Dipica. She bribe me and hell yeah- 5hours of maths class, what did u expect?!?! I ain't genius or never interested to be a mathematician. So, right before our gym starts, we went to mcD cos Azrie ni bodoh. He wanted to eat before he starts gyming (bodoh punya apek) haha Then we took the HELP bus, Azrie is kinda jakun cos he naik bus for the 1st time. Seriously spoil brat lah kau ni.

The spoil brat

Mr seb class is the suckiest class eva

Aaron and Omar, stressed cos of maths class

Kar Mun, the SHINOBI

My knee :(

The handicap dude :'(

Gedik vS Jambu

2010-01-22T00:08:00.005+08:00

Today things goes so well for me though i didn't do much things~not because I'm lazy alright. It just my ligament is killing me. I received a called from my most gedik bitch this afternoon and yeah his name is Ikmal Aliff Jamaludin (sumpah penat layan kau punya merapu). Thanks to aliph for calling me bitch when Qasmal, my consultant from Fitness First called and now i have a very unique sweet nickname cos of this mamat rempit. Bapak sial kan?!?! haha So, this effers was hoping my ligament could get more worst than what i am suffering now but thank to God and now my knee is feeling much better. Aliph, sumpah aku cakap, tadi that doctor should give u racun so u cepat mampus haha

Aliph si gedik

lets go to the 2nd topic of friends life shall we? I just met someone who i think is awesome and caring !! I can feel the love there haha Unlike si bulat a.k.a aliph, he only wished me to mati earlier instead of me getting better. So, speaking about this mista chef jambu air, his name is Iszraf Asiraf who currently doing practical in Langkawi. I think its in kedah. langkawi is in kedah kan? AHAHAHAHA i've been there but geografi is so not my subject. I even got lost in train from subang to sg buloh and suddenly i realised im in pelabuhan klang. what the feathers kan?!?! Haha

Mr chef jambu air

Hell-elujah To Life

2010-01-20T20:34:00.008+08:00

" Surgery..Surgery " This bloody words that has been playing on my mind lately. I couldn't decide whether to go for my knee surgery or just stay in pain atleast for another 60years till I'm fully ready. I'm having a knee injury which is called Lateral collateral ligament injury , a complete tear of the ligament on the outside of the knee which is caused from having an extreme exercise.

The place where im gonna get drill by mr doctor

Once the tissue is removed, they gonna put a screw nearby somewhere

Hell Of The Day

2010-01-18T20:30:00.001+08:00

Things didnt start well for me since i woke up at 7.30 in the morning today. First, mama was mumbling at the time i opened my eyes because she found out that i just registered my new gym membership at Fitness First. Comon ma ! I just woke up ! If i knew that was gonna happen, i rather die in my sleep than listening to ur 3ominutes of lecture. I was late for my psychology class because i was stuck for listening to my mama's Hot FM and thank god Mr Sebastian is very understanding and know the situation.

Lets go with the 2nd chapter of Fathur's life shall we. It was around 2 or something like that. I was out with Saiful, Omar and Sayed, we were on the way to Castle since maths class was canceled and so we decided to have shisha in the afternoon but things couldnt get any better. I lost my 300bucks which i just withdraw a moment ago. Bloody shit betul Hahaha. This is one of my lucky day, well thats what Sayed said. Thanks mate.

It goes like the 7th floor of hell today. Sigh. But it wasnt all bad because i received a morning wish text from my crushy this morning and thats the only thing that make me smile today :D haha Since my 300bucks got stolen by mr toyol, i end up burning my calories at Fitness First this afternoon for 3 and a 1/2 hours. I bet im gonna be 56 again by the time my crushy reach kl haha

So, tomoro plan is as usual. Im gonna gyming with Asyraf Azahar and Omar Keiser Rasheed. This two bloodypool who smell awesome when they sweat +.+ Anyways, I kinda feel sorry for Wan Azrie, Aliph, Mishal, Carlo, Michael and more of his unlisted friends. Cos i actually did what Aiman Bin Ariffin taught me which is to left his " lemak lemak " friends number at the gym HAHA Goodluck on that guys, u know how persistent those people can be.

Reasons~

2010-01-17T23:43:00.009+08:00

First of all i would like to apologies for not updating my blog lately. Im kinda busy with all taiks and stuff. U guys should really start following me on twitter so u will know what has been happening lately ( http://www.twitter.com/fathurharun ). Damn. I havent check on Aiman, Aliph, Fhrie and all my citizen friends on blog. Sigh, i miss u boobies.

Menghilang for 3months. How the fuck am i suppose to update that ?!?! Maybe i should ask Johan to update it for me since he has been with me evryday and yeah, we aint gay aite !! As u know, im still single and it has been 4months. Macam taik. No one can help me to masturbate now HAHA I dont know, lots of friends has been asking me to delete my ex from my system but its kinda hard when ur heart stays with the one u thought it would be ur soulmate.

December has been such an awesome month for me though its a lil bit disaster for a few days but who give a shit. Like what aliph said, life without a drama is not life. We are not Barrack Obama to have a perfect life. Even they have problems and scandal. My big brother, Farhan Harun who successfully got married on the 26th of december and i guess i am soon to be an uncle. CIBAI. Im 19 and yet im gonna be an uncle. Thanks paan for getting married this early.

Whole family members who badget hot

Fathur and Nadia bulat

New year has been sucks for me. I've seen alot of my friends who got laid and drunk on that night and yeaah Pop's is mad with me cos I actually used his condo. Few days ago, i met someone who actually awesome and im kinda inlove haha and we have been chating crazily and laughed alot but im not sure if this goes the way that i want. Love is never meant for me Sigh. So, i heard class has start a week ago but who gives a damn. Im gonna start my class tomoro haha

Alright mates, im gonna update again soon cos its already 12.07am and i have class at 10am tomoro. Have to wake up 3 hours earlier cos the diva needs to get ready for his hair and face :D

my blog isnt dead yet, bitch

2009-10-02T00:24:00.005+08:00

Im so sorry dear blog. I was too busy with date, working, meeting with president all over the world, satisfying wives and having babies. With all the works i've done, i lost 6kg in two weeks.

Too many things happened lately and i dont even know where to start. Lets start with raya. I think this year is the least fun i eva had in my life. Im different than u people here. I have 2 dad's and 2 mum's. beat that. With the tikus ( 3 steppies ) and those upcoming babies which i have to call brother and sister. Dear god, please no more upcoming sibblings. I like to be the youngest ya allah. 1st day of raya and im about to break to pieces. I was too exausted. Subang, Kota Damansara, Sungai Buloh, Gombak, Sh. Alam, Hartamas, Malacca then drive back to kl in one day. Gila ah. I think i slept less than 3 hours for the 1st 4days of raya. About 6am, i fly off to Johor to meet my grams and cousins cos ususally they gather at one place so it would me more merrier. I didnt enjoy most of the time with my relatives cos they kept on asking how does it feel to have a new family. What a stupid ass question to ask. Tu lah melayu. Bodoh dalam menanya soalan bijak.

Yesterday, i was with michael and we hit the road for a roadtrip. Cant believe we were lost in some kampung for about 1 and a 1/2 hours there. Haha but its fun to see he panic like hell. Yesterday morning i became his stylist and he need a new style to college. So we attacked Zara, AX, CK and Ralph Lauren for his new style. well- for the 1st time i helped someone on shopping and i get none. In addition, i have to spend more money for him on food and his aviator. Aishhh.

Today, most of the time i did is just chatting with Fadhil. I didnt call him the whole day cos im sick and my voice turns out to be like cicak. Cant believe he said i sounded like an oldman on the phone when he called me just now. MAHAI ! Haha.

Ryanne's Farewell

2009-08-27T17:30:00.011+08:00

Yesterday was the bomb with Ry and the bongoks at square. I miss them asses since my mum doesnt let me out cos of h1n1 thingy and so, i lied and deepest apologies to her and I think the 1st day of Raya is The Best Day to come clean. well muslim said its the day of forgiveness. It feels so welcome at the time i arrived when Ry and Carlo stood up and run to me. I love u guys so much lol.

Ryanne, my best bitch since high school

Carlo my man. The one who still likes my step sis

Desiree, Elly, Ryanne, Fathur, Mahan and Lionel
You guys really put a joker smile on my face

Yesterday, Avenged Sevenfold song was played and suddenly
Lionel seems to be possesed
And he was so high and embarassed us on the table
hahaha
Babi !!
He started to visualised and singing and screaming
Omg
Seriously i doesnt know him at all !!!

Ryanne went back today afternoon and i didnt get to see her at all because my grandma is in coma and she had semi strok cos of hypo in the hospital since last night at 1am. Sorry Ry and You still owe me TUSHI ok ! I've been wanting to eat Tushi since last year. UGH ! I still feel sorry for Carlo and Mike tho cos they couldnt hang out with us till the end.

Bitter And Sweet Post

2009-08-10T23:08:00.009+08:00

Today i went to Hanna's house. I was hoping to see Marisa ass and she was insanely late ! OMG u are such a PIG hahaha Marisa dear, did u know what i through for ur tickets ??? Its so hell k !! I heard Joann said that Jesse and the gang is gonna FUCK my ass soon. Im so dead. Aish korang ah really givin me a big time ahahah And i still LOVE u Bitch. Im still worry about u Marisa cos u still have the flu and fever. Get well soon k

Waiting for miss world to arrive

The late Kimora

Yesterday i went to curve cos maxis called me regarding on the phone that i bought recently and there's a problem with the documents that i sign. Its very Funny cos a moment after i left curve, a fever strike me and my whole body was burning up. My parents is so worry and i should say paranoid cos i just had my fever recently and it strike me again( same thing as what Aiman Ariffin said ) . And so they sent me for a check out, just to be save after the influenza strikes like hell in Kl lately. But i know it just a normal fever, ohhhh comon, we are talking about Fathur who is tough like a superman k. Fuck that guy who fuck the PIG and cos of him, the virus was created. Thank and good lord to him.
Im so worry now incase if i got guarantine or anything tomoro, Im gonna miss AX, Guess, Topman and all the store * Crying * . Whata hell am i saying la. Its not even a sure that i have the flu, no symtoms, nothing. So im not dieying or the world is gonna end. Haha
Guess i should get some beauty sleep cos tomoro im gonna be the lab animal test which is so cool and fun !!

Haunted by Reality

2009-08-07T00:48:00.004+08:00

My thoughts are all over the place.
Sometimes i feel like leaving all the stuff behind and start a new life cos the past has been haunting me every time i closed my eyes.
Life sometimes can be fun but it is only for a moment.
Its like a glimpse, u saw it and in a second, it dissapeared and turn to be dark.
Somehow, im still thinking about leaving Malaysia and going back to my hometown in Australia, its really peaceful and yes, im gonna be lonely cos all that i care is here.
Does it make me a moron if i leave? Does it mean im selfish leaving all my friends here in Malaysia?
I don't even know the answer myself.
Guess- i am a moron and a very selfish person cos i cant even fix a damn thing and all i did is just cry and wait for a time to change without putting an efford.
I miss a thing called " family " ,dont even know or remember hows the feel of having a family.
I miss my late Mama ( who is like a mum to me and took care of me since i was 3days after i was born)
I miss my late bestfriend, Dan De Luca so much
Im breaking to pieces eva since i lost u guys.
I'm always wondering with the upcoming drama, will it be good? will it be bad? or will it be totally change and ruin me?
Tomoro is the day that my dad will introduce me to someone he just met.
Maybe i should start to accept reality and everything that possibly happen and let it flow by itself.
Jezzz, i wish i had someone who could help me stand strong since im falling and breaking to pieces.

Penat Gila

2009-08-05T16:20:00.005+08:00

Ms. Jessica a.k.a not so Alba helps me with my shoping today.. She gila semangat and today i paid her to be my " orang gaji " .. awww arent im sweet jess ??? I supposed today will be the last time im gonna bring u for a shoping, cos i have to say it with honesty that ur eyes is so cacat >=o hahaha Jess act pick me a shirt with a design macam kena air brush.. gila ah.. Dah la my short pants she chose the yellow colour.. Sometimes, white people can be very very lunatic when it comes to fesyen xD well shes normal outside, but today i realised that she actually very weird at choosing cloths.. No wonder la she had all those bits and Eskimo shoes and she wears that today. A very terified moment and today i feel so relief cos last time she wore the type in the film of 300 which is so spartans. I love u jess and u beter thank me later cos it took me a few minutes to write about u here k xD

Marisa.. OLD OLD OLD

2009-08-02T00:36:00.005+08:00

Marisa.. the oldies

so on the 1st ogos 2009, marisa ass turned older
and
i saw few wrinkles on her face and she needs to be iron
im sorry dear for yesterday
i couldnt make it to calebrate ur birthday
i love u mamarisa a.k.a chocolate mars
aish
all my friends are gettin older
and so am i
but while im ageing
somehow peeps says i looked younger
ahahahah
mamarisa mamarisa
another year older
i love u buddy

Poison In My Brain

2009-07-30T00:11:00.006+08:00

I dont think i make the most of all the stress. Im missing someone like crazy and i misses all my friends. It feels like foreva tak jumpa Aiman Ariffin and i miss his sillyness and when he gossip and tellin story, its as if i were watching some kind of horror or panic attack movie hahaha sorry Aiman.. Love u k. So, today pegi buat baju melayu for raya and for my brother wedding day, penat gila. I saw this amazing pants at Tough and CK but gila ah mahal !! Then i walked to mana ntah and i saw this one rare aviator. I know Aiman would love this stuff but then i doesnt know whether it suits him or not, muka jambu but it it might not suit well with him. Semester break is killin me ! A month and nothing to do, for the 1st time i feel so jobless and pokai. Nevamind, later i will ask Carlo to belanja me shoping or maybe Marisa. Sayang korang k !! Lets not forget Elly the tempurung face. Thinking about u guys really killin me. Seriusly i need to see ya'll to be happy. Im so stressed thinking about unable to see u guys la. Reeyas Zhafrie Lam Ian Kwan, what happen to u now bro ??? Miss u the most here and last time we met was on the 11th of july which is Sem's pool party.

Now im being so emo. Really really love and miss u guys

Poem's Of The Year =)

2009-07-26T17:03:00.005+08:00

Malaysia semua babi,
our government is so lousy,
all college no quality,
Chinese and Indian pun tak boleh masuk university.

It never had a choice for me,
because no money cannot study at oversea,
so I always feel i am so pity,
every college are greedy,
sini sana all need money,
their pocket kosong our perut noisy,
I am poor because they suck my money.

Exam question full of difficulty,
it has one reason only,
which is to earn more money,
because we retake money masuk lagi.

The staffs always so eksi,
they did wrong never say soli,
before asking please show your money,
otherwise they wont be happy,
we pay their salary still make us angry,
that is why i wanna study hard to earn more and more
money.

Tiap-Tiap hari feel so lazy,
never try to wake up early,
always hope college will cuti,
everyday go to class feel so sleepy,
lecturer always scold me lazy.

Do assignment just like to copy,
before the final only start to worry,
every nite study like crazy,
because scared scolded by mummy.

Why my class girls all not pretty,
big like elephant but always show me how she is sexy,
while the monster wanna treat me nicely,
like that i better mati.

My looks also very ugly,
saya mari girl girl semua lari,
everyday wanna date them they only say busy,
semua orang tak ada hati,
make me always so lonely, only can watch soap opera movie.

Dota always let people bully,
maybe i am really so lousy,
although nice people is so happy,
but i am always unlucky,
kena headshot easily,
after mati still mati.

This is just a small story,
typed it simply simply,
just wanna feel funny and happy,
actually i
am not lonely,
because I have many friends around me,
They all so so friendly.

I hope this poem will make you happy,
this is tak ada kena mengena with anybody,
just want you to feel happy,
Cos if you happy i also senang hati.

The Complains

2009-07-25T15:29:00.007+08:00

So, i had study skills exam today
I didnt expect that all i read came out
and woooosh..

kacang gila * style mamat melayu cakap *
its really rare cos i actually read for exams
tadi in the exam halls,
i kena marah by Ms.Aida

she la semangat lebih
calling me to sit down cos i was talking at the coridoor
and about 15minutes after i start , i realized that i took the wronged exam
aish
then she selamba bagitau i careless kat lecturer lain
hahahahaha
its her fault kowt
nevamind, at least she laugh
and she did jokes
unlike madam GOH-tong
i got WARNING from papa few days before my exam
he said, i'll be dead if i didnt score well
those words aint true when he said im dead,
translation, killin me
just, the most i scared is,
he promised that i will have to work for money and no more outing for me
well - no money means no shopping
AIMAN ARIFFIN a.k.a mr sexy once said that im a spoil brats
but thats aint true
hahahahah
well, maybe cos i learn that from the best !! xD

Forget about this laahh
most important thing is
im gonna have a sem's break for a month starting next wednesday
and for a month im gonna stuck for DRIVING CLASS for license
My dad send me to bentong, pahang to my uncle place which is so far
I dont mind but i hardly meet or talk to my uncle
aish
i dont feel like complaining la
nanti that someone cakap i complain alot and memang spoil brats
hehehe
nevamind, i think i can have fun there
besides, its really near to genting highlands
and its been ages since the last i went there

Best Friend Foreva

2009-07-23T15:53:00.006+08:00

Best Friends
The title we chose
But what does it mean to be “best friends”?
You should see each other every day?
Well that’s not true for you and me
Should silly little fights get in our way?
Only if that’s how it’s meant to be
Should we give?
Should we borrow?
Should we dance like there’s no tomorrow?
Secrets are traded
Privacy invaded
Hugs and smiles are shared
Tears are shed
Love is spread
We know that we both really cared
If you fall
I’ll help you up
And if you call
I’ll always pick up
Best Friends Forever
The promise we made
And I know in my heart
That it will never fade

I Miss You Bro

2009-07-22T18:22:00.008+08:00

A great friend DAN DE LUCA was born in ITALY on April 27 year 1994 passed away today at hospital Sungai Buloh.. He is currently 15 and died at a young age of swine flu.. I miss u so much bro.. Like JAZVEEN said, i wont be able to bully u anymore.. Seriously missing u.. I cant think of anything to write now. DAN DE LUCA is like a family to me and seriously i am not embarrassed to say that i love u my brother. You promised me a lot such as to hang out with me for a shisha, going to creek mountain and i almost bought the ticket to NY so u could teach me how to ride and ski and yet u are the pro master. I don't know how to accept the reality that u actually gone cos seriously, its only been a week since the last we chat cos u in hospital and u told me u can hang out with me soon. That doesn't matter cos u promised u will be absolutely fine.

I MISS U BROTHER
-DAN DE LUCA-
A FRIEND AND A BROTHER
1994 - 2009
REST IN PEACE

A Smile Day For Me =)

2009-07-21T14:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the fucked up day i eva been to !!

Aaron told me that its all a KARMA
and its not always bad or good
and yeah, he is damn right !

ok, so today i had to do my last presentation
i was shaking badly till unable to breathe
such a looser right
although i shake and stop for air, i did it good
and im the only that mdm GOH WAN CHEN asked for the power point for herself to keep it as reference for other group xD
its something in a blue moon when she actually nice and praise me
weird and unbelievable

Sam Chock found my pouch and i was so effing relief
Or else my daddy would slice me to pieces
nothing is lost, except that i have lost my pride
they actually go thru all my cards, such as, IC and Student ID
and they were laughing at my pictures
hahaha whata hell lah korang
The babi-est word i eva heard is saying i looked like cicak
Cibai lah !! xD

My semester is gonna end soon
In two days, im gonna miss The main building where i run here and there,
disturbing peeps, sleeping on the bench and so on
the next semester will be in wisma help where it is all goodlooking peeps x)
yummyyy
hahahaha AIMAN ARIFIN if baca mesti bangga cos hes in wisma NOW
i had alot of troubles and happy moment there
but its beter to keep moving forward and the new sem and the new place doesnt seems bad to me
i have lots of friends so it does comfort me

Tonight, SHARON and baby JOHNSON comes for sleepover at my house
them bitch is from texas and just arrived this morning
they straight for pictures in KLCC and shopping bila sampai tadi
GILA AH KORANG

Personalise by
FATHUR THE JACKSON 5

Bad Hair Day

2009-07-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

Today, mama woke me at 7
she seems to be in the rush for meeting or seeing someone
so I went to CURVE around 9 ???
i told mama to drop me there cos i gotta fetch aaron at his house
everything's went wronged today
I arrived like 9 and i just became worst cos not even the staff comes at 9
i waited like jaga / guard and the gate didnt open till like 10.15 ???
and so when it open, i wanted to buy a perfume for my friend cos her bday is in the corner and that abang comel didnt layan me cos thought i was fooling and im a student
whata hell la

And about 11 something, i left to Pelangi Condo to fetch aaron
and i think its about 10 cab doesnt want to send me and ask for 30 bucks to college
gila laaah
Dah la tadi at college we all kena marah by GOH WAN CHEN like gegila
she failed us
my life is so perfect today

To be honest,
this is aint a joke
i trip when i was about to wash my hand at sushi king
its like someone has been cursing me =(
baik i pegi mati je

Before i went back home,
i think i was at help desk to ask for my exam docket
this is where i left my STUDENT ID, IC, ATM AND ALL MY CARDS in my pouch
daddy would kill me if he knows this
so stressed la today
why la things kept on happening ??

-eMo-
Fathur walle

Carlo was awesome !!

2009-07-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

This guy is so awesomely sick !! xD
i was with ismahan khan, desiree, amir afandi, carlo and azrie for shisha
and azrie budak baik !!
he didnt do anything haram like us did
ahhaha
omg, seriusly shit guilty
i went to get a bottle with this ehem girl
then that makcik tudung was at the counter
i was like OMG then this lovely lady went off by myside cos she was guilty ????
aish girls nowadays la kan

so, my cousin is still underage and he smoke and i saw azrie looked and give a weird tough look hahahaha
korang seriusly pelik lah !!
to be honest, im so embarassed of yesterday
tak caya tanya lah mahan !!!
our table is the bising bising one
and this guy fell from his chair cos he was so drunk

mahan and desiree is seriusly jobless la
they asked me to play truth or dare
and i got it
so i took the dare and whata fuck !!
she ask me to kiss amir and i did
thank god its my cousin hahahahaha
tukar topic lah
so,
after all the crazy thingy
i sent them ass home
carlo carlo !! why la u go and vormit in the taxi bro??
hahaha
i gota answered evrything cos i didnt drink, translate, im normal xD
ok ok,
then later my mum was like waited for me at the masjid wilayah
and its effing far from duta ria
i walked like an hour and its so effing empty and dark
scared cos who doesnt want the HOTSEXYFATHUR !~!!

ok, so that was the yesterday story
here comes the present
today, my babi brother dare me to eat chilli for 50bucks
and this mr smarty pants go for it
and its like babiness taste and ewww plus it is so hot
i actually cry when i ate that hahahaha
i just came back from square again
but tonight i was with my dad
he wanted to eat the arab food so we went there
papa and mama's lil boy la kan =)

i expected my dad to bring me for a shoping spree cos he ask me to go to one utama with him
but
ilek la.. nothing pun
just his own shopping moment
cheh

i was so bored today
nothing's up and plus tomoro i gotta wake up at 7 cos i gotta see my friends at college

i miss carlo man
he is so awesomely sick !!
obviously i miss mahan and all too
the greater is for IAN
brotherly love xD
hahahaha
so gay la u carlo
whata fuck

ok ok,
i need to chawing now
i got tears to tiara on animax soon

LOVE,
R.J smith

Boring Day

2009-07-18T16:37:00.002+08:00

Hmmmphhhh
stress with life !!!!!

WHATA HELL IS WRONG WITH THE WEATHER ????
it's awesomely suam suam kuku
my undies is fill with my sweat
ugh

Today, i make a plan to see MAHAN, AZRIE, DESIREE, CARLO AND AMIR
as usual lah
Hartamas Square is like my 2nd home xD
So, today my phone rang like zillion times
i feel like smashing my phone
bukak bukak message and phone calls,
tengok tengok ADAM, HARRY AND MICHELLE
aish
Azrie message me today on msn
He asked me to fetch him at his house
which is taman tun dekat jalan dato ismail, i think???? xD
But that bloody bitch went out with SABRINA a.k.a tetek
and howdahell am i suppose to fetch him ntah
Budak zaman sekarang always talked like K-ling xD

I was so bored !!!
Last night.. my step's came and i was uncomfortable with them around me
hey !!! I'm trying to be the best brother eva k
but, u are not my brother IAN REEYAS ZHAFHRIE !!!
soorry steppies !!

ohhhh, CARLO DELUGA called me and ask me to come now
but i havent shower or get freshen up
gotta chill dude xD

ok ok
i need to get handsome

P/S : sayang kau bro a.k.a IAN

Im Pissed

2009-07-17T11:41:00.004+08:00

At 7.10 am today on 17th july 09
I received a message from IAN
today plan was totally ruins
because he had to go for somewhere with mummy
i dont mind but then i gotta wait like another
6months i guess to meet him again
so,
my plan is back to CARLO
it just me, carlo and few friends going out tonite
they said they wanted to go to where entah
my mind is so serabut this morning
im online then HANNA nudge me
ohhh then it says marisa
she thought i got pissed
but
i am not,
or maybe just a lil bit >:D
DAMN LA
i sold my laptop kowt so we can go out
kanina bu betul xD
nevamind
i can shopping like crazy with this amount of cash
ok ok
so im planning to go for harry pot head today at 3
sadly bapak full dekat semua wayang
and we sit separately
aish my life is so full with drama la
now its like 11.49am ????
and i havent shower
so, this is what im going to do !!
shower now and get handsome
then i update my blog after im back home aite

Farewell people,
REEYAS FATHUR

ohhh my blog

2009-07-16T20:16:00.003+08:00

wow
i feel like zillion years didnt update my blog
sooryyyyyy
i was too busy with effing assignment
can u believe that madam goh wan chen actually changed all the topics
before our due date?? whata fuck la

ok ok
so here it goes
the drama is gonna start now

on July 11 year of the swine flu which is 2009
i think it is about 3pm and the day of ibtisem's party
my computer rang
and its from IAN KWAN REEYAS ZHAFHRIE
it was a blue moon on that day i guess
because surprisingly, he's in kl
and he FETCH ME
wow !!
my heart beat was about 200 degree fast and gonna explode anytime
and he came on the bad time
bacause i just cut my hair
and the effing dude in pee-ka-boo did it wronged
and i totally have the coconut gair style
anyways, Ian said its hot
and joann frizzy said im cute
hahahaha
nice friend
trying to jaga my hati much la konon

Oh yaaaaaaaaaaaa
speaking of him,
i actually took photos with him and sadly
cant post it on the blog cos ismahan havent send it to me
nice one mahan !!
Ian and marisa
awwww
this two lovely kids ah
was malu malu la konon when meeting up
one was shy and fringe covering her face
and one busy talking and looking away
i love them both weyh

and then rahiemy's called
so Ian leave earlier that i thought
it was about 9.11 pm and 47second
i hate that time !! >;D

so i walked by, met with iman
she was scream
and i thought that someone wanted to rape me
so i ran
hahaha
cant see ur face la biatch
im blind
we were talking and talking
then back to sem's party

i think it was 3am ?????
i gotta send mamarisa home at PWTC
wait
before that,
it was just me, mamarisa, carlo and hakim walking all the way to square for cab
we went for a drink at apa ntah that keling store
then i got worried
promised Ian that i have to sent marisa home early
so i rushed her
we took a cab back home.......
here is the effing story

that fat pakcik asthmatic dying dude charge me 47bucks to kota damansara
whatafuck la
it was about 20bucks
and adding it double because it was night and add another 7bucks
NOWONDER HE IS SO GEMUK !!!!!

aish aish
still, that was my best day eva

i didnt get anything for sem on her bday
cause i promised for a shoping spree with her
and she is so excited i tell u
i feel scared.. well girls shoping can be surprising k

OMG
this is only like 1% of the drama of my life
im tired to write
dissapointed for not update it evryday

DRAMA seems to be my middle name now
evryday drama jeeeeeerr
if i posting it about my lecturer
its gonna be a full 6hours page to write

nevamind
i will update it from now

Love,
REEYAS FATHUR

Exam Is Next Week And I Just Came Back From Vacation

2009-06-20T11:03:00.008+08:00

I was on a trip with my brother and sis.. NO PARENTS ! And we were having a nice relaxing time although we are so tired and broke. Nothing's interesting to write.
well- evrything was great except we thought that there's gonna be a buffet but naaah, its only during the weekend and school holidays. That bitch on reception gave us the wrong infos but evrything is two thumbs up !

We didnt do much activities because this two lazy mongkeys are sleeping 24/7 hours.
Evryday, i think im the only that walked alone at the beach or maybe jog evry morning ? haha. I think most of the time i did there was capturing my own pictures and yeah more pictures cos im turning to be like Azrie nowadays. Sorry bro ! I wanted to go for kayaking but that keling closed when i just arrived. That guy is actually dengki with me and jelous cos i looked nicer than him ! haha

U have no idea how hot is there. My skin from brown and now turned to be like indians, those punani people. ugh. I bet at COLLEGE people will call me the K word.
well- suddenly i liked the K word. Sounds so like K-fed. cool yo. Haha what rubbish am i saying lah. Haha. Im gonna sleep. Will Update soon.

LOVE FATHUR ALWAYS K !

Tastefull words form GAMBIT!

2009-06-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

fathur you got hacked by the awesome GAMBIT!
well, i dont really know what to say
fathur wants me to write somthing cool and long
im BLANK! if i start crapping just mind me (:
so lets see, i known fathur for a few months
his still the same *i think* ;p
i dont know what is he up to these days
so yeah, tkkan nk write somthing about me pulak :p
well,im just gonna write about me than (:
i am known as ELMO, GAMBIT, AARON, and many more
im nothing, just a normal guy *trust me with this one*
i aint smart, i aint rich, im just normal (:
just wanted to drop by fathur's blog
his having some problem signing in :\

well i think thats it,
tata,
Aaron G. Johnson

Back From College with TONs Of Assignment to complete

2009-05-27T17:07:00.003+08:00

Pening Pening with assignment
Im suffering like how AIMAN ARIFIN DOES
There is one to hand out next week on tuesday
And i havent start it yet
Adoiii

Maybe i should go shoping untuk hilangkan stress
But that doesnt make my work done

I got tons to do
And plus i need to study
Mid year examination is like on 20th of jun
And i wasnt ready at all

Madam Goh doesnt accept a second late paper work
And now, time is so like killin me
I got few family wedding to attend
And mana ada masa untuk study and assignment

OMG
Im so dead when it comes to degree
It scares me alot
Today, she wants me to read few chapter and present it on next monday
And yet, i have my own liability to do
I even have my chores to complete my life

My parents warn me if i fail this sem,
They will neva give me a 2nd chance anymore
Told Madam Goh regarding this

And she politely
said ITS A COLLEGE LIFE
And this how it goes

Ugh
I missed shisha and lepaking with my buddies
Guess that FATHUR is so gonna be a good boy for a moment

Ok,
Im back to do my assignment
chao

Date Since Yesterday till TODAY hehehehehehhehehehehe

2009-05-26T22:01:00.003+08:00

Semalam im kinda surprise her at hotel
like, sudden visit
But, i was cibaing late for couple of hours
hahhaa
i feel so like a looser

We were hugin in the lift while it was going down,
then
boom !!!
The lift was open
And the workers plus mat saleh buncit tu nak masuk
And so, we were like kelam kabut and pretend nothing happened
hahahahah

At 1st we were scout around in klcc
But, apa ada kat klcc????
Bosan gila !!!
Then, we move to pavillion pulak
Shes more onto seeing me than im taking her to nice nice cool places
but who cares
heheheh
we were damn happy

About 3 kowt,
we went to One Utama for movie
And, adoiiii, ANGELS AND DEMONS are so sohai
Damn bored
Well- bcos of being bored
we were kinda a lil bit naughty during the movie xD

Aish,
cant believe i went into dreamworld for pictures
hahahaha
I think if anyone find the pictures,
im so dead
banyak sensored and PCD *BEEP*
hehehehe

We were walking and walking
Then kaki berdarah of melecet
aish
I feel so lame yesterday

Finally,
we baught the couple pendant
Its like a love shape and it can be used for two
hehehe
so we both are wearing half of it
And when we meet, it becomes one xD

hehehe
whoeva read this,
im sorry..
im so inlove laaaaaaaa

Bring her lunch for sushi
and she seems to eat all the raw stuff
Cool !!
shes awesome

Aish,
Today is kinda her last day in kl
but, we are still together
hehehe
And i worry nothing cos she be back b4 i miss her gegila

Tomoro is her flight
And
I become insane now and so mabuk cinta xD
Feels like droping out of school and follow her la
hehehe
And if i do that,
i might as well find a grave for my own
cos papa is sooooo and will kill me

Well, i think thats all about love story i have for this date
hehehehhe

Love for my bie,
Fathur

Morning of TRUTH

2009-05-24T10:51:00.002+08:00

Last night,
phone kept on ringing this and thats la
macam Babi kowt

They all were like tellin me
my bloodbro with dfrent parents is fake
but bodoh !
aku sayang dia kowt

READ MY BLOG'S NAME LA

And yet i still wonder
who is that guy i saw at futsal if it wasnt fhrie
hmm
funny la life

Although he told me he wasnt actually the guy i knew,
but i was quite ok with that
cos bloodbro aite

Aish,
fhrie...
If u read this
I wasnt complaining at all
It just i am mad of those saying u this and thats la

nevamind
I take all the anger out of this blog

Well, u are so owe me a futsal game and movie ! xD
Hmm
No worries aite bro,
still sayang kau doh

Anyways,
I have none ideas no say anymore
well,
its 11 in the morning
blurr, mengantok, lapar, bau busuk tak mandi
smua cukup !

out to mandi,

created by..
Brad pitt jr

signature,
brad pitt jr

whats up with my blog?!

2009-05-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

today on 21st may,↲
I gota do a talk for few works and its embarassing↲
Well, peeps are watchin and i talked like a lame dumbo↲
Was stressful↲
Then, ↲
Aiman message me that he waited at the foyer↲
So, after embarassed myself much, i went out and we had lunch↲
Oh, its me whos eating↲
Because he scared of jiggle belly↲
He was damn hilarious and we talked damn much↲
Poor him, hes kinda having final examination on june 8, 2days after my bday↲
we or just me who had lunch at mcd and he though im a sucka for burger haha↲
Aiman is so shy and hot peeps, ↲
Go message him and tell how young he looked and give some support keh↲
Funny, he live few block from me and we just knew↲
well thats all lah..↲
malas nak tulis pepanjang↲
Love,↲
Brad pitt jr

back to black from johor

2009-05-17T12:44:00.002+08:00

i arrived home at 12 and was damn tiring of the wedding trip↲
And so i wake up damn late today↲
Feeling miserable, my 1st class starts tomoro↲
And my body is breaking to pieces ↲
funny thing, i actualy got hanna on nails and hand↲
Dont know how to hide it from tomoro orientation.. Sucks

Bump Onto Dini And Her Mum

2009-05-07T13:38:00.002+08:00

i went for a shoping with my mum↲↲
was searching for a sling bag↲
And↲
A shirt at za'ra↲
Then mama was like↲
Uuh dini!↲
And dini was like↲
Uuh aah ehh u!!↲
Eh eh↲
And many her robotic language↲
Her mum was like yeh i know↲
But i just intro myself↲
It7 weird hahaha↲
Dini was funny
And so is her family↲

u name it urself lah

2009-05-02T18:15:00.002+08:00

okok
today, i was about to go johor
spending time with my cousin there
but
it sucks
no one is gona send me
and i aint taking bus there
its like a fuck through the ass
hahahhaa
im gonna be tired lol

so,
tonite
maybe like 11..
im off by flight to jb
not gonna be online
but
i can try
just for msn
hahaha
its great
after i downloaded for msn phone service
its like a *** service xD

well-
maybe when im back in 2days
i can re-do my stupid post and
yeah
puting some panas pictures of me here
xD
i ned to be more panas than azrie
lol
dont get wrong
so chao for now aite xD

Cook's Of The YEAR !!

2009-04-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

Parents is awayyy !
Two animals at home
Name Farhan
And
Farah !!
They wanted a steamboat
With mash potatoes and on !
The young and
Fresh cook, made them so
They can stop hissing at each other
=.="
Tonight
I have to plan on something
Such as
Getting them freaskies
Animals do eat anything xD

busy today.. Penat

2009-04-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

1st of all
Apologising to elmo
I was busy la bro
Pecah badan 14 ni cos penat
I had a max rough day
Sex, masturbating, works and
Sex again
Hahaha
I got like 2 new assignment
Bloody lecturer
Anyways,
Azrie and zhafhrie,
Fathur misses u

HEY Cullen......

2009-04-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

HEy fathur CULLen,First of all I dont think you look like any of the celebrities,but you can have dreams.HEHEHE....Cool you have a blog,keep working on new stuffs and dont be naughty like you were in school.Be a good boy and listen to your mama ok.Thank you for the PASSWORD,I will keep posting stupid stuffs to your blog.CHAO for now ADIOS...................:)

Elmo got tuisyen !! =(

2009-04-27T19:44:00.002+08:00

aish
was busy online
with elm's
and i laugh like hell today
but then elmo got tuisyen
so
i gotta wait till 10 to get to online back
was sad and really sad
can u see my tears??
hahahahahaha
im gonna be busy tonight with stuff
and in still bone for msn at 10
xD
thanks to msn phone
but its lame
coverage is lesbean
i'll be back to update again
so
peace out
and have my love,
fathur

Elmo's is here (:

2009-04-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

i dont know how to start bt who the hell cares (:
fathur is like the most awesome brother i know *keningkening*
THANKS for helping me with my blog
im still kinda lost bt i will get used to it
hehehe
me fathurrahim a.k.a brad pitt ;p
thanks for updating my blog eventhough i didnt ask you too
u can invade my blog whenever you want
hehehehehe
well i think thats it,
byebye,
ELMO

lmao!

2009-04-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

lol its me again syeehahahhaha =)

well fathur is late again today huh? hahaha well well. im late to school to today =) haha dont hve to wory =) tu lah bz chatting with me sgt smpai tido pon tah pkul brape kan? haha
well weyh i miss u lah senior!!! i iss pontenging class with u =(
come back to school fastre!! hahaha

kayh im kindda out of word ryte now =)

lol fathur =) tq =) love you!! xoxo
syeeha

HACKED xp

2009-04-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

kk. fathur asked me to edit his blog but sadly i have to offline soon so lemmi just tell you guys bout him. i know him through iman. i guess. yeah or mahan. his nice and funny. i always tease him. AHAHA. but his kind enough to not tease me back. baik kan? agak ahh but sometimes his an ass. ;p

ahaha. sorry. i just know him for 1 year but i get close to him when we stay back and lepak together. yeahh. i wanted to borrow his guitar hero but till now i forgot to go to his house. eheh. lupa lahh. so yeahh. now he dah college, maju ah. ahah. i dont wanna write long stupid post and talk nonsense here so bye (;

xx izzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzati xx

late, Fathur's routine life !

2009-04-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

* Cursing *
Late again for class
Was so busy chating
with azrie, syeeha, sab tetek,mamarisa and zhafh flea and all last night
Kinda sleep late and my pussy alarm didnt ring
and no one woke me up

So,
while i was sitting out of class
and half awake
kinda
like a zombie
i did update this one guy blog that i called apek mata sepet!!
sorry with the craps on ur profile bro !! XD
hahahah

im out for breakfast with hot mama's
peace and out
fathur

lalalalala..

2009-04-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

hello people =)

well syeeha here,im currently hackking fathur's profile =)
well about fathur huh?
his awesome..
we started to knw each other when i was in form 1 i guess =S n he is in form 4
where he n suzanna will b walking around da form 1's block then we started to talk =)
we were acting like a monkey when we meet each other hahaha..

then when i was in form 2
his in form 5
was his last year.. senior lah konon hahaha
tp senior x gune,coz he ajar his junior buat bende bukan2 hahaaha..

soryh..fathur =P

well,i still remeber he pernah suke dkt kamariah caarey hahahahhahahahaha..

lol..gtg 4 now =)

xoxo with lods of loves syeeha =)

Fathur.. the guy that girls talk about every second !

2009-04-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

aish...
what a life la !!
im kinda missed my ex
and yeah !!!
fathur is single !

Today,
in college, tons of girls talk about me cos im single and had a big fight with sara in class
so,
they were like
" there's a new papa man on peeps list"
it does sound scary when it happened to u..
like i might get rape or some shit xD
Fhrie always said to me
find a girl and bang !!
hahha
its like a system of TOUCH n' GO

aish
fathur is trying to get a life here

love, fathur

Fathur oh Fathur.

2009-04-26T14:32:00.000+08:00

Dude, you've gotta blog!

ahaha, hello this isnt Fathur.

he keeps on asking me to edit, aint i done yet?

I MISS YOU FATHUR, why'd you have to be form 5 last year!

grrr, your not in school no more.

nevermind. your old, i understand. JOKE JOKE!

chill and relaxs, ah. ;)

ohkay, ive got nothing else to talk about.

love me, Marisa. ;)