Fade To Black

I cry for the first time that you were almost mine,

I cry for the memories I've left behind,

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new,

I cry for the times I thought I had you.

What else could you take away from me when I gave you everything that you ever wanted. Nothing seems so right when I'm with you. There's a laugh but behind it I believe you didn't see it was just a tears. Call me a hypocrite, I did that because I hate seeing you hurt or sad.

I still remember the day I know you through my friends. It was February 9, your birthday and I wished you. I remember how you look like, your hair was short, you were thin and you have pimples that you hate most. That was years ago. Was it stone age? I can't recall. I met you for the 1st time on april 11th. You were wearing a white sweater with black jeans and flip flops. I remember the time I was thinking that you dyed your hair because it look sticky and its so black. Sadly, I was wronged. You were wearing some kind of a hair moisturiser. We went to curve on our 1st date. We had a long talk, a long walk looking for datin sri's coffee table, a gossip at nando's and i laughed so hard till my contact lens went up. It was stupid.

The day I met you was the day I intro you to my cousin and her boyfriend. We went straight to Rasta for shisha and you vomited because it was your 1st time and my mistake for not taking you for a dinner. You were blushing and that was the time I realize you are cute, adorable and my type. As the time past, an hour feels like a minute, I enjoyed every single nano seconds with you. We decided to hang out at thai club. How crazy. The day we had our 1st date was the day we decided for a clubbing. That was the very 1st time I hold your hand, we dance together and I hugged you.

I'm starting to ran out of ideas on how or what to write. Tears is falling. The memories we had, things we went through is priceless and nothing can be compared with. It was about 3.30am and I sent you home. You got practical work at 7.30am and I felt guilty for sending you late. I park my car outside your house so your housemate wont see me, We had a talk, a really nice conversation till 5,45am about you, things you like, things you did and I started to story about myself. That was the time I saw the real you. How sweet, can be annoying at time, a clown and honest.

I always love you and accept you the way you are. At the stage of depression now, I hope you understand and get to know me better. I can't accept the facts I'm about to lose you. All i can say is that i love you with all my heart. Always do and always will. You taught me the true meaning of love,taught me how to smile,and how to be happy again. I just want you to know that my love for you will never fade and I'll fight for you till the end.

From Here to Eternity ~

Memories fill my head as i look at a picture of us.
Do you remember that day? The day you told me you loved me..
The day you said we'd b together. I should have known it was to good to be true.Cause no one is as good as you. You were perfect.The one everyone wanted. I remember the day you walked like it just happened. You said that you wont do this anymore and I buy every single words you said. Then, you look away and let go of my hand. You didn't care if i was ok or not.

Tears fill my eyes and my throat begins to burn.
I cant seem to learn.

I always miss you though you are next to me.
The memories hurt.
But I want to remember everything.
I NEED to remember it.
Because

I always love you ♥

Letting Go

In my life i have seen the sun shine
In my life i have felt the rain
through the livid through the fire
I have been through all of life's sweet gain
but how do i get to heaven
know that i am only human
how do i reach perfection?

life is strange
I need a change
a new life a new beginning
tell me what lies waiting for me
a new life a new beginning
I' m ready for my world, my destiny

Today is a new day,
If you stay down life will pass you by,
So help yourself get up,
fight the battle and win.

There is a plan, a destiny that awaits you,
Do not question your destiny,
Do not ask questions such as why me?
Accept the path that has been laid in front of you.

Do not be afraid,
Take one day at a time,
Be proud of who you are,
Walk with courage and your head up high,

Believe in yourself,
Focus on the positive,
For the footsteps imbedded in ground of your new path will become the solid

p/s : I found it funny when I able to create shit like this but unable to do anything that is good from injuring myself. Once you are down, never do stupid stuff. Be strong, go out with your friends and find something that can chill your mind.

Ways To Keep A Relationship

1. LOVE EACH OTHER SINCERELY.

2. Don't lie.

3. Keep communication open.

4. When you get hurt, forgive and forget.

5. Never talk about break-ups.

6. Never say "it's okay", even when it's not.

7. Forget about "pride".

8. If you say sorry, mean it.

9. Don't compare your past, with your present.

10. Give & take process.

11. Don't talk about your ex's.

12. Beware of his/her feelings.

13. When you had a fight, don't let the day pass.

14. Don't be only partners, but best-friends.

15. Don't flirt with another guy/girl.

16. HAVE FUN, go out!

17. Don't treat their forgiveness like it's expected.

18. Don't hide what you're thinking, tell them.

19. Remember; we all make mistakes & have pasts.

20. Don't question each others feelings.

21. Don't take him/her for granted.

22. Never go to bed angry.

23. Don't be afraid to be you!

24. Have time, energy & effort.

25. Don't lose yourself in the 'us'.

26. Don't say things you don't mean.

27. Little things make big differences.

28. Give each other space, don't be over possessive.

One And A half Years

I take a look at the time and its almost 3am and I just had a birthday few hours ago. The best thing, unforgettable memories I had in Penang. Spend my days with QeeQee, someone who dearly at my heart. I'm currently sitting under a tree at Lake Garden expressing my feelings on my blog.

Qeeqee was a year older than me. You was super short and fun. I liked you alot because we could have fun and talk. I ingat lagi you asked me out a week before 11th April 2011. In the heat of the moment, I said YES. I don’t think I would have regretted it so much…I stupidly waited for you..for one and a half years I've been liking you secretly. Qeeqee and I lived 200miles away from each other but it didn't stopped us from meeting up on every weekends. Friday to sunday, the days when i get to hold your hands and kissed it and makes me smile. My birthday was yesterday and we went to Feringgi and spent 5hours at the beach listening to your laughed, the moment when i silent and smile thinking if I still had a chance to do this again next year with you but I tahu you ingat I bosan and mengantuk. I know I'm not the best for you but I love you sincerely from heart. Its been few weeks asyik gaduh and I cried and i hurt you. I never meant to hurt you but I pray to god that you sincere and honest with me. If my story ends tonight and god takes my life away and he ask for my last wish, I will definitely pray for your change and happiness because I don't mind if I get hurt but not you. My heart can never be repaired.